I have decided that self esteem is a character trait that I do not need. I understand that Princess is the most important, and not me, and having self esteem in my life would only impede my ability to raise her. Sure, I feel good about myself, but I have decided to cut out the part of me that is trying to raise myself up and point that at Princess. So far it is working out great.

Princess is having a hard time dealing with her mom being gone this time. She's very clingy, and I'm not used to it. I had the 'traditional' father role before this started. I worked fulltime, gone all day. I was gone before she woke up, but came home in the evening. Maybe spent a few hours of time with her on weeknights, but on weekends that was our time to have fun. Very little discipline was left to me. No emotional suppport was needed from me. Now it is. That's were the killing my self esteem came from. As long as I don't think about myself, I think that Princess will be better to cope. Am I wrong? We'll see...

In my life, things have gotten a little better. I still miss Mom, but it's easier. Sure I want to marry her when she gets out, but that's looking farther and farther away. I have actually met two girls in the last week, and Stripper started showing some more interest again. Tomorrow is the test for her. If she comes and hangs out with us tomorrow night like she promised yesterday, she's my choice. I will probably have her for comfort while Mom is in jail. Then we'll see how far it goes. I'll report in on Sunday.

-Dad